Occupying Terra Nemo
My my, it has been awhile. I have a fresh batch of experiences and opinions from the past few months I am planning to put here as a footprint of where I'm going. The last couple of seasons have been ones of lots of internal change. My life outwardly has had very little notable change, which is always hard for me. The settling in and leaning in to a consistent life is a mark of growing up and that has always made me incredibly restless.
I amhappy content to observe that at this point in time I'm thankful for the outward settling in and inward change. This gives me a chance to see where I'm not being vulnerable, where I may be running instead of dealing, and to find myself in a deeper way within the community around me. UGH though - thats not easy. Friendships have shifted, new people have come, others have gone. I'm starting to be more of an observer than a player, which is also weird. (Don't get me wrong though - I can provide you, the reader, a spin-off blog of my ridiculous dating stories which I've been encouraged to do).
This blog - The Quarter Century Slumber - was established when I turned 25, almost 7 years ago. At that time, my mind sort of split open, and I realized I had spent a good amount of time trudging along within a construct I had created, much of which was derived from my conservative upbringing. It was a painful and beautiful time in many ways and it catapulted me into a no mans land of spiritual and also nonspiritual life.
No man's land or Terra Nemo : land that is unoccupied or is under dispute between parties that leave it unoccupied due to fear or uncertainty.
I have recently been doing some practices that have begun to open me up spiritually again and it feels amazing. Its been very healing to realize I have access to that part of me still. When I walked away from the practices I could no longer get down with, it cut me off from that part of myself that I know is the most important. There have been times of grief over this loss. We all have this incredibly deep and meaningful side of ourselves, our inward core - our SOULS - that need to be continually looked after, irrigated, given breath and new meaning. I am ready to fill my Terra Nemo with less fear and more certainty after years of non-occupancy. I guess you could call it Occupy Terra Nemo. Look for more here soon!
Peace and Love
A.
I am
This blog - The Quarter Century Slumber - was established when I turned 25, almost 7 years ago. At that time, my mind sort of split open, and I realized I had spent a good amount of time trudging along within a construct I had created, much of which was derived from my conservative upbringing. It was a painful and beautiful time in many ways and it catapulted me into a no mans land of spiritual and also nonspiritual life.
No man's land or Terra Nemo : land that is unoccupied or is under dispute between parties that leave it unoccupied due to fear or uncertainty.
I have recently been doing some practices that have begun to open me up spiritually again and it feels amazing. Its been very healing to realize I have access to that part of me still. When I walked away from the practices I could no longer get down with, it cut me off from that part of myself that I know is the most important. There have been times of grief over this loss. We all have this incredibly deep and meaningful side of ourselves, our inward core - our SOULS - that need to be continually looked after, irrigated, given breath and new meaning. I am ready to fill my Terra Nemo with less fear and more certainty after years of non-occupancy. I guess you could call it Occupy Terra Nemo. Look for more here soon!
Peace and Love
A.
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